Inverse.
So ladies and gents, although I decided that blogging once a week would be a good decision, sadly, my daily blog posts have come to an end. BUT, since this was in fact an experiment, I figured I should first type up my findings and conclusions.
Hm, what can I say?? I started out this whole blogging experience as a really pissy girl. I ended the project as a real piss-head. So, not much has changed. I started out as a crude, fouled-mouthed raunchy open bitchy person. Yup, still that way. Sorry kids. I started out as a lazy slacker and, if you've noticed my 6-week gap in posting..., am still a lazy ass. However, I have, in the past few weeks of posting (trying frantically to catch up with my posts) discovered the wonders of internet and re-connected with a part of my inner nerd that school basically drowned out when I was 16.
The only thing that I think has really changed from then till now, is that I've come to like myself more. Strange, isn't it? I write a blog where I complain, whine, and mostly irritate myself, and for some reason I've decided I like myself. What the hell?? (Please, for the love of god, no psycho-babble analyzing me...it's 3AM, I'm exhausted and I don't want to wake up tomorrow and read some comments analyzing me...I'm more aware of how I come off, what this means about who I am and what I'm trying to hide/act like. I'm not that dumb. :P) I mean, I guess it's a good thing, liking myself more. But at the same time, it doesn't make it any easier to be myself. Actually.
It makes it harder.
Because the person who I feel like I now know I am, has no idea how to live in the life she made for herself. Talk about making your bed and sleeping in it.
Ergh, you all know if you've been following me that I hate trying to write something really profound. Always end up making myself sound like a total prick. Douche. Ass. Pick your word. So, I'm going to end on that note. Foul, garbled, incomplete and totally unacceptable for a scientific analysis.
Just the way I like it. ^^
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